new color palette

i came home early today so that i could get some rest and i have been lying without any luck of relaxing or sleeping. i am so tired......

maybe i need to get laid. would that relax me? hee hee.

in total somnia.

i beg of you. i really want to close my eyes and go to my la la land.
i have been told to drink warm milk before bed. i even tried a spoon full of honey, an advise i got from R who just seems to know EVERYTHING.
and..... it's 2:40. what the hell am i doing.
does soy milk not the same as regular milk???
what am i doing wrong!!!

dumbo

Sometimes its really nice to do things out of your way. to let other new things come on your way. And life surprise you with different people and wind of change.

I made table mat for my friend J.

this is for you so that you may live and love the taste of life.

as you always say....

"life is about experience"

open

after 2week and a half of this insomnia marathon, i am starting to lose myself.

i am breaking out all over my face, starting to feel like i have chest pain.

so i think to myself, why am i having insomnia.

why can't i stop thinking in my head. why can't i let go of my thoughts.

why can't i just express my thoughts to people. why do i keep everything in.

why do i lock myself in.

i want to be open.

want to be let it pour out.

da da

i just booked a ticket to korea to see dad. i am so excited!!!!

restful day

today, i took a nap in the middle of the day. it felt really good. i cleaned, worked, did my laundry, walked in the park, ...it was such a beautiful day.

while having brunch with A, i couldn't stop thinking about how nice would it be if i could go see my dad. with all the great things going on in my life, i couldn't help but to wish i could share them with the person i most sincerely love.

dad, i am going to visit you soon.

I will make my way.

hello yellow mellow

last night i caught a midnight bus on my way back home.
i was making my embroidery on back of my doggie cardigan,
when someone stroke my head. WTF....and
i look up and it's ex Y.
I couldn't really talk to him because he was getting off. But,i was really happy to see him and he was really happy to see me (or so i think) :)
it was so short but pretty profound 5 seconds of my life.
i wish him well.
anyway, i finished a doggie cardigan.
check it out.

eat

Today i finished the third yarn piece. it's not complete but i couldn't wait to post it up bc i am super excited. i love it. i can't wait to do more.

For anyone who teaches me anything, i am forever grateful.

today, M taught me how to crochet my letters into their form. i almost felt like crying. when i get famous, M, i will never forget you. when i am dying on my death bed, i will think of you. okay, maybe i am being too dramatic. anyways, you are the best.

love.

insomnia

this week i am having total insomnia. every night, i am up till 4. so last night while tossing and turning, i decided to come down and finish the 2nd piece that i was working on. i was totally foggy if you know what i mean.
while making the piece, i thought of my dad and how much i missed him.
i was trying to send him a telepathic message thru my energy path. what couldn't i do after a week of insomnia??????
anyway, after i was done, i decided to arrange things on top of the fireplace so that i could send the message back to my dad.
so here it is.

This is for you. love

i lost you

my very first word of out of metal was "lost"

then came "you"

and "i"

i can't wait to do more.

couldn't of done it without S. thank ya!

freaks are welcome

J bought the coolest puppet while hanging out in LES.

she was doing a show in front of me while the guy next to us

couldn't stop watching her. She is such a riot.