grey cloud

i can't get the grey cloud over my head. everything frustrates and upsets me so deep inside. am i bipolar? why am i so moody. why can't i just be fuckin normal. why can't i just be in place filled with white cloud?

today

my mind was stirring up all day.

in the end, it's a simple answer.

"go back and do it again"

equals

fill me in

i feel empty

is anyone listening

are my words lost

will you be my side

come and take care of me?

center

turn back

long beach

walking on the sand tha's barely dried from the water

looking at the subtle lines made from the water

letting the water brush your feet front and back

watching girls in bikini

letting the wind touch you from miles and miles away

imagine all the possibility

sunday

i am loving this day. i am in my studio playing, making art, and listening to pixies. rocking my head, writing calligraphy.

i wrote same phrase over and over and over again. put them together. i don't know what it is but i am seriously falling in love with this calligraphy writing. it is so god damn sexy.

took pictures of some of my favorites.

Room

In the air of emptiness,
i hide my soul
i lock it just in case....

within time,
it gets filled in
and my secret disguised

did i forget
did i...

moments before you and i,
i unlock my soul
in the warmth of sun in your face,
i am melted into the room
full of emptiness once again.

drawing

i love these kid like drawings. makes me want to jump around

remembering my dream

in my dream,

i am walking with a guy that i dearly feel... it's new and it's pink.
it feels like its gonna rain.
we walk into a bodega
we pick up a can of budweiser
we are walking to a restaurant sharing a can of beer
it starts to pour really hard
we run and get under a corner awning that's just barely big enough
watching the rain, hearing, and feeling the rain.
we are trapped underneath for more than 10 minutes
we finish our beer
just laughing

my dream as i remembered.

stranger

i had a guy follow me up the street today to ask me for my number.

in the begining, i was really annoyed and tried to avoid eye contact but later, i got toally fascinated with the way this guy was looking at me.

he literally looked mesmorized by me. crazy! i can't wait to tell A & P.

totally made me ponder.

i told him to give me his number.

should i call him?

Nahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

peaceful sunday

i am loving this peacefulness.

birds talking, some cars going by, someone nailing something in the far distnace...and just the sound of me tying away.

jersey life.... peaceful indeed.

meditation board

i made an artpiece for my dad.

hope it helps him to meditate better.

if it doesn't, it's still my favorite. i think i am gonna dwell on this for a while.

calligraphy

new painting studies

the never ending question again... what to paint next.

why is this so hard for me??? why????

went out hiking towards the late afternoon with my favorite dad
he drove so i took some video clips of the ride and then some nature when i got there.
came back with mosquito bite on my arm. souvenir i guess

more nude drawings

tried to draw more edgy lines towards the end of the drawing session.

this could be even better.

boo

it's good to break rules!