seriously true in girl's mind

do you love me
you do me
you me do love
love do me
you do love me

dejavu

things are always in wave
it comes and it goes
up and down
never still
and it's always the same old story
how i deal with it is what makes it into a new chapter

i have been here before
i have

bike bike bike

to the end of all beginning

hollow eeeeeee

monster painting with pink eyes, professional licker dressed in nun, blue mesh stocking
bug eye glasses, mesmorizing witch, most beautiful sunset.... my favorite holloween ever.

my name my space

5 am

in the morning,
i think to myself
i ask myself
i answer myself
all the things that needs to be answered
in the way it was meant to be
with no addition
no subtration
just bare as it might be
one with the way it suppose to be
i am thanking
the very one that gives me peace
i thank me

Jae Sa

last night was my grandpa's Jae Sa. (celebrating the day of his passing)
i love jaesa. it is so full of mystery!
beautiful.

drawings101

two together

seven lake

mom's cooking #2

she did it again.
corn muffin mix pancake
melted american cheese
honey
toasted walnut
raisins
it was priceless

yum yum

ding dong dang

guatemala

new

i smell new in the air

for sure!!!

deep within

the stillness, a breathe in between.
a solid answer in mind, i have indeed.
slowly unwrap.
free me from the possibility of the one unknown.
and shy me the language of the world unread.

i am left drenched in a state of deep sorrow.
i could no longer hold this very state of mine.

hurry pass this still.
i long to run.
once.
more.

like dad like I

I went to botanical garden with my dad. it was really special. we walked, talked, and hung out all around the garden. in the middle of the day, we rested on a rock while i sketched and he meditated. after while, i sat next to him and started to meditate myself. i could see in the corner of my eyes of people looking really strange at two people sitting next to each other obviously in middle of meditation.

it was amusing to me.

so there i was... pretending to mediate and thinking about my childhood days. i actually did the same thing long long time ago. i found my dad napping in front of the lake one day. so i decided to go next to him and copy him. i laid next to him. spread out my legs and arms so that it really looked like i was napping myself. my mom took a picture of it.

after i got back from the garden, i looked everywhere for this picture...

so, here it is... me trying to copy my dad because i want to be just like him.

i love you dad... you are my biggest hero.

A-day

moment of silence for A-day...
i love you

hush

echo of my past is drifting away

as the white fluffy clouds are humming in my ear

sparkles are back, dancing on my shoes

as i bottle this moment

forever be mine

belmar

it was raining but we still decided to go. we went to penn station, picked a place and got on the train. it was pouring out. we watched the rain, wrapped each other in newspaper because it was so cold.
5 minute before belmar, sun started to show. the day looked beautiful indeed. we laid in the sun in our underwear and ran into the ocean.
sipped wine next to the bridge by the water and took our train back into the city.
it was a beautiful weekend. thanks.

speechless

what have you learned today
what did you dream today
i see the reflection of myself in your eyes
what's in me is within you
i couldn't say anything because your dream were in fact mine
rice krispies....indeed.

listen in

i believe the reason i am sad today is so that i could be happier tomorrow.
i believe my life is taking me to a greater place.
i believe deep down i know where i am headed.
and i believe i will meet you along the way

what have i learned today

i was numb. i no longer thought about what things meant or try to make sense of things. if you just let it, it is really clear. things are simple.

i am not built this way. and i am special because i am built this way.

i now know.

i learned that about me today. pretty darn special. special indeed......

grey cloud

i can't get the grey cloud over my head. everything frustrates and upsets me so deep inside. am i bipolar? why am i so moody. why can't i just be fuckin normal. why can't i just be in place filled with white cloud?

today

my mind was stirring up all day.

in the end, it's a simple answer.

"go back and do it again"